2025 yearly

Jan. 3rd, 2026 09:29 pm
rarsneezes: (Default)
ITSSSSSSSSSSSSS 2025 YEARLY GUYS. i dumped a bunch of stuff in a notepad the other night and meant to look at it again but: i am not going to end up looking at it again so instead. here it is, as is,

good stuff from 2025, reclist, etc

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- sandy <3

- willow <3

- printing out photos really was a highlight

- new job!!! commute is hell but pays more and respects me more so like

- gf also got new job so money is nice and comfy... feels good... and it's nice that she has even a little more energy because her commute isn't hell and her job isn't hell

- I FINALLY GOT MY FREAKING LINK AND MIDNA KEYCHAINS RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I HAVE WANTED THESE FOR AGES AND TEHY WERE SOLD OUT SO MY DELIGHT WHEN I LOGGED INTO ETSY AND SAW THEM RESTOCKED!!!!! one day i will get zelda


- here is the link

- printing out 300 photos fr thanks cvs for your end of year discount holy shit. very satisfying to give thoughtful gift (photo album) and also like. physically hold photos of your family + your cats. 2026 scrapbooking i'm coming for you

- creative in a lot of little ways which is satisfying enough even if i don't have many Finished Projects to show for it

- I MADE IT THRU THIS YEAR... AND I'LL MAKE IT THRU THE NEXT!!! AND IT WON'T EVEN KILL ME!!!!

- ff8 fwuesdays and actually like all the tuesdays i have spent doing something with my little sister.... i liked fontaine fwednesdays i liked princess tutuesdays (and i'm SO glad i got her to feel insane about ptutu) but also getting on call to listen to my older sister walk my younger sister through ff8 is so fun also it's so funny the ff8 autism that is just Activated in both my sister and my gf what a weird coincidence haha

- actually that's a lie i do have a finished creative project and it's that FTPVERSE DAILY CAME TO AN END.... WOWIE.... THAT'S CRAZY YA'LL.... thanks to everyone who stuck around and read and thanks to skaia for sending me her thoughtful emails even if/when she had fallen behind.... or reading things out of context.... or whatever.... nice and kind to me :)

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FWEINDSHIP

- mint i love you thanks for being in my life. sharing homestuck fic with you is also so fun i love being on the edge of our seats together about ywdmp but also talking about ux or web design or dot hack or literally whatever you're so cool

- skaia thanks for supporting me in anything/everything. lia apprectiation so real and i love u for it even if i have not written more lia content LOL

- SAGE THANKS FOR SUPPORTING ME IN OCS!!!! FUN TO THINK ABOUT JOSEPH AND RIVER FOR REAL FOR REAL

- feral i'm so so so glad we talk more and stuff and also thank you for introducing me to blaze union i'm going to explode

- MEDI i do always love seeing you on my dash.

- SHAN!!!!!! talking to you about ffxiv smut thoughts is fun actually even if we don't talk talk much but i do enjoy seeing that timeline and i appreciate what you have done to get me to htink about thing that brings me joy again

- KC!!! PINCH!! SIB!!!!!!!!! SPENDING TIME WITH YOU IS SO FUNN I LOVE XENO THURSDAYS. XENO XURSDAYS!!!!!! GENUINELY I MISS THEM SO MUCH TAKING MONTHS OFF FOR NOV AND DEC WAS SMART ESP GIVING THE DAYS THE HOLIDAYS FELL BUT WAAAAAAAAA YOU GUYS ARE SO COOL AND I LOVE SPENDING TIME LAUGHING WITH YOU

- KC how sincerely you are into xenogears is so much fun seeing the end of disc 1 with you was so great

- skingle? i'm skingle?

- becoming moots with nutty on bsky is like everything to me wah

- pluvi crew!!! ajax getting to talk to you about solsov is so good and also your loic was delightful.... i loved bringing colette to the ship also and how fun she was

- also love rec'ing ajax jumalanpelko fweindship yay zoom yay

- i did not play 100line but watching my friends go insane about 100line and their 100line aus has been so much fun thank you lyre and nael. i think about decadance eito and sumi-chan a lot

- ALYYYYYYY GRAHHHHHH watching bats with you was so fun and watching owls so fun and i'm so glad you're in my life liek for real for real for real i did miss your friendship when it had dried up........... so i'm glad :)

- NICE TO RECONNECT WITH MEGS OVER STREAMING XC2 ALSO AND JUST IN GENERAL. BTW.

- EGG!!!!! RYAN!!!!!! PLAYING OBSERVATION DUTY TOGETHER!!!!!

- THE CRYSTAL CLEAR MEMORY OF HAVING KRAE OVER AND HER JUST LOCKING IN ON OBSERVATION DUTY LOLLLL

- EGG JACKBOX NIGHTS.... JUST IN GENERAL.... GREAT MEMORIES.... YAK'S FUCKING UWU..... THE BLORBITY BOBBITY.... HOW T-KO2 KIND OF RULES. PEPPER IS SO FUNNY. ETC.

- also ryan convincing us all to cosplay mario characters in ffxiv was a magical moment (and also a link was there, random)


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WRITING ACCOMPLISHMENTS, ANYWAY,

- little ywkon daemon au

- poking away at ywkon jademythra trauma fic yum (jade leaking)

- my whumptober hits

- MY JINMALOS SMUT HIT???? LONE THANK YOU LONE SAN

- rewriting my old half-remembered smut fic and it's like good is the thing

- the ftpverse postgame snippets are just sooooo good and refreshing i missed those guys (one dayy i will finish one of these collections of scenes so i can post them haha)

- wanna do more mario rp clenching my fist dramatically

- also did some good drawing and doodles and stuff

- i feel satisfyingly creative even if i have so many half-finished projects haha

- also rereading ATR for ftpverse daily was refreshing because i got to go oh wow yeah i'm Good at this

- galea fic it's my birthday.... rotating it fondly......

- THE FTPVERSE FEMBLEM GAME RIKU MAP CHEESE THOUGHT EXPERIMENT... I HAD FUN....

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RECS ETC

- oh my god feral's fic about the abortion/rape questline in silksong is driving me INSANE (positive) [read link]

- this star wars fic where obi-wan dies in episode 4 and then jolts back in time to being a 16 year old and is like well . okay . well. time for me to FIX THE FUTURE, I GUESS [read link] nael rec'd this to me and he was so right it is so good

- jouu no zan fics.......... these are some of the best smut fics i have ever read at all ever??? lol???? um i just read through their shousetsu bang*bang archive tbh but they've started putting things on their ao3 if you want actual tags/descs/etc. "laid to rest" is the one i really liked this year!!! about trans guys feeling gender positivity through sex. and also ghosts. and hauntings. OH!!! and i liked teh autism to autism communication in "the killing type" as well

- rereading ywdmp etc... what a good fuckign homestuck fic

- SNAPCUBE KH1 DUB IS GENUINELY SOOOOOOOO GOOD AND SINCERE AND I LOVE IT AND AM SO GLAD IT EXISTS ALSO THESE ARE THE FUNNIEST PEOPLE ALIVE I SWEAR. WHOEVER DID KAIRI (SOPHIE?) FR FR BUT DOLLIP AS WELL [link here]

- adef has been a delight this year

- haley whipjack as well

- bewildebeest's commentaries of loztp 100% and all dungeons were both sooooo fun to watch and i liked them. nice vibe.

- MY GOD THAT RYNE DAEMON AU FIC THAT KILLED ME [read link]

- L gets run over by harry du bois' car is actually hilarious [read link]

- the fic where obi-wan kills palpatine because he thinks he's a creep in a pedo way but actually [read link]

-ELEMENTARYYYYYYYYYYYY WHAT A GOOD SHOW!!! NOTHING WILL HIT LIKE IT AGAIN!!!! SHERLOCK HOLMES ADAPTATION THAT'S ABOUT A M/F QPR?????? MY GOD!!!!!!!! AROS ARE WINNING IN THIS HOUSE TONIGHT IT'S SO FUNDAMENTALLY AROMANTIC AND I'M SO SAD I'M DONE WATCHING IT BUT IT WAS SO GOOD. NEW FAVORITE TVSHOW 5EVER one day i will finish writing my ywkon crossover with it HAHAAHHAHAAH

- i feel like lone has done something that has made me go YAY YIPPEE WAHOOO but other than buying some good merch (fair and true) and making me decapitate tiyani (waaa) and also suggesting + recieving + liking my jinmalos smut. well thanks lone you're a real one

- UNLESS IT WAS LIKE A FLAVOR FOLLEY OR JAIMINE P THING IDKKKKKKK

- idk if it's like a good rec but. sex reversi....

- XENOGEARSSSSS wow the animation budget in this game is insane and it's like got a fun gameplay loop after a fashion. crazy.

- wait wasn't BAZR this year? what a fascinating hit of a game ngl. peachyyyyy <3

- the spm musical is so cool i GOTTA listen to more of it. the spm fandom doing crazy things [link]

- DELTARUNE CHAPTERS 3+4 OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD SUSIE IS THE CHARACTER OF ALL TIME

- SOULSOV CHAPTER 3 (CHAPTER 2?) OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD YSME IS THE CHARACTER OF ALL TIME!!!!!! THIS GAME HAS *CLONES* IN IT!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCKKKKK

- BRAIN!!!!! SONG OF FOREVER ALL TIME FOREVER [link]

- ok so i've been playing gba com and am like genuinely enjoying the gameplay loop a lot, which is an insane thing tosay? that might be an insane thing to say????????? but it is true. fucked up that fighting with cards and building op decks is the point in like a way that is satisfying once you approach the game where it's at (a deck building game) and stop trying to pretend it's a normal kh game where you can just mash x to win.

- literally i'm in floor twelve and i haven't progressed because i don't want to plot in destiny islands i just kinda wanna fill out the map but i'm going to be running into plot ANYWAY and i should keep playing becasue this is MY GAME OF ALL TIME but, well,

- also com gba thoughts: the sprite animation is so good and the combat definitely feels better in a lot of ways but there is something about re:com's cutscenes and dub specifically that the og com just doesn't quite hit at times. hit or miss kind of game. not in a bad way just. tfw the translation is the same but sometimes you think about the intonation of the re:com cutscenes ("i don't remember asking anyone to rescue me" with that EYEROLL) and you go woowwwwwwwwwwww and then you miss when the cutscenes got the entirety of the budget . my god was recom's cutscenes just so.

- er anyway com gba has been fun to play on the bus i gotta play more of it for real

- getting an hour commute with three transfers has really made me understand handheld games better. i gotta try ghost trick this way i guess or something

- PA3!!!!!!!!!! WOWWWW!!!! pokemon comic that made me cry and also that leaving comments on it made me have a nice connection with the author :) [read link]

- I THINK I GOT A FREE COPY OF GUARDIAN'S DILEMMA BECAUSE OF IT??? GOOD COMIC THAT YOU SHOULD ALSO READ BTW ESPECIALLY IF YOU LIKE YWKON JADEMYTHRA HAHA

- JUMALANPELKO!!!! CAT CULT COMIC OF ALL TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [read link]

- watching wake up dead man with an ex-catholic (aly) and me an ex-christian and my gf who is non-practicing parents didn't care enough to give her either the xtianity or the judiasm was just a great experience and i'm glad that my experience was heightened by having a catholic there to explain things in more detail that i didn't undersatnd and just. good stuff. it's good stuff.

- also it was a good fucking movie, but, anyway
 
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just so i can rant and also have a convenient spot to link to

in short: the mario movie triggered me.

and because the mario movie triggered me, it's really difficult for me to be objective about it...

trigger warning: there's a physical abuse (textbook) played for laughs in the movie. so. that was unfun! if that's a trigger for you, and you haven't seen the movie yet, i would steer clear. i would steer clear of the galaxy movie, too, because i can't trust like that


in medium: i have ONE (1) trigger and it's physical abuse(/domestic violence overlap) and in hindsight it's kind of crazy that the mario movie for kids had a joke in it that could be boiled down to "haha hurting your subordinates because you're evil is funny and also so normal so it's okay to laugh at it."

((the monkey's paw curled, also. i said surely the sonic 3 movie couldn't let me down as badly as the mario movie did. and then what did the sonic 3 movie have? slapstick section where gerald spanks eggman for being a bad grandson. because bad grandsons get spankings. haha so normal to punish your children by spanking them. haha so funny. NOT!!!!!! this is also my trigger.))


in long:

so. like. 

there's a scene in the movie where bowser and kamek play piano together for a little bit, genuinely it's a really cute bonding moment between them, they do a little jam together while kamek gives bowser updates on their scheme.

fandom context: kamek is basically bowser's dad. like. in the mario & luigi series and also the yoshi series. that is bowser's dad. bowser outranks him because bowser is king and also kamek spoils him rotten and will let him do anything. so this was BONUS cute to see, as a diehard mario fan, because, wow!!! wow!!! cute family moment!!! they have a little jam sesh together!!! kamek probably taught bowser to play piano!!! fun!!!!

and then kamek says something that pisses bowser off, and bowser slams the piano lid closed on kamek's fingers.

had it been THIS ALONE, it probably wouldn't have even got me. i don't mind a little violent slapstick, and that alone honestly got a chuckle out of me. but that isn't where the scene ends.

they keep talking or maybe they argue (this part is a blur to me and for my own mental health i have not watched the movie a second time) and then we get to the closing joke of the scene: kamek asks "can i lift the lid now, sire?" and bowser says "no. i'm still mad. and hey, a little pain builds character."

insert horrified record scratch here. 

hey: what. hey: what. 

the whole point of the slapstick being funny was that you probably assumed kamek got his fingers out of there right away, right? you could play with his fingers being stuck if you wanted, like if you were looney tunes, but... what do you mean kamek left his fingers smashed in the piano? what do you mean he's asking bowser for permission to unjam his fingers? what do you mean bowser can just SAY NO and presumably KAMEK LISTENS??? hey, sorry, with two lines you have just implied that 1) bowser hurting kamek is a regular form of "punishment" 2) that because it is "punishment" kamek has to get the ok for it to be over?!??!??!?? 3) THAT'S BOWSER'S FUCKING DAD? WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE TREATS HIS DAD LIKE THIS???? 4) EVEN IF THAT'S NOT HIS DAD THAT'S HIS TRUSTED ADVISOR, WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE TREATS HIS ADVISOR LIKE THIS???? 5) """A LITTLE PAIN BUILDS CHARACTER"""? HUH? HUH? OH SO YOU'RE JUST GOING TO MAKE BOWSER SAY THE THING THAT EVERY TOXIC MASCULINITY FATHER HAS TOLD THEIR HURTING CHILD? ??? YOU'RE G OING TO PLAY THAT ONE JUST STRAIGHT AND EXPECT ME TO LAUGH AT IT BECUASE HAHA FUNNY??????????? NO???????????????? I WONT??????????

i spent the rest of the movie trembling in rage, btw. but i didn't clock that was what had got me so bad until after the bus-ride home and halfway through writing my 8000 word post about the things about the movie that disappointed me (read that here, if you want, i talk about things that aren't the joke that triggered me)

and i think the most infurating thing about it is. once again. this is the mario movie. for children. this is a beloved franchise that is primarily aimed at children. i'm not here saying that it can't have some dark stuff in it, whatever, graphically rip off luigi's mustache, fine, the luma can joke about the end of the world, whatever. but playing STRAIGHT UP ABUSE as a funny joke um. you are just normalizing it i think??? because when you are supposed to laugh at bowser telling kamek that a little pain builds chcaracter that means it's funny and normal for your dad to say it to you. that means it's funny and normal if your dad is hurting you. you know? YOU KNOW????

and maybe it got by because bowser is hurting kamek who is obviously older than him anyway but ELDER ABUSE IS STILL REAL???? and WHAT THE LITERAL FUCK ???????????????????????????

also there was no reason for THE MARIO MOVIE ft my beloved blorbos since i was old enough to EVEN HAVE FAVORITE FICTIONAL CHARACTERS, to have physical abuse in it at all, let alone play it AS A FUNNY JOKE??????? violent slapstick, sure, fine, normal. jokes about the end of the world and the inevitability of death? i hated the tone of it as presented in the movie but i would be a liar if i didn't say jokes like that popped up in super paper mario. but PHSYCIAL ABUSE? my ONE TRIGGER? in the movie ft my favorite franchise wehre i was pretty certain IT WOULDN'T SHOW UP???????????? meaning i got completely blindsided IN THE THEATER?!?????!??!???!?

like are you serious?!?!??????? 

i am still furious. i am absolutely incredulous. 

i can never trust a movie made by nintendo ever again.


anyway oh my god one day i will completely exorcise this from me. maybe today is that day.

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Oct. 5th, 2025 01:34 am
rarsneezes: (king)
undertale fic recs

feral is a good friend of mine and one of my favorite writers and when i say their prose has shaped me i Mean It

deadass i rec her whole body of work but here are the standouts / my favorites / the big ones / etc

notes:
- in later fic writes Frisk and Chara as very jewish due to being jewish themself
- has very fun thoughts on gender in Monster Culture
- Formative Bodysharing Prose
- Chara is not a bad person for having hateful thoughts, and that's important

general content warnings:
- writes with headcanons that Frisk and Chara both climbed the mountain due to abusive and/or neglectful parents (or in Chara's case, a whole damn community)
- both Chara and Frisk have tried suicide
- feral voice "wow so it turns out death by buttercup poisoning is PRETTY GRUESOME so let's dig into that, shall we?"
- Chara's humor is pretty grim, but that's just canon (you make a joke about two kids playing in the soil)
- there is some codependence going on with Chara/Asriel but let's be real here. that's also just canon.


ONESHOTS.


(in absence of) a comfortable rhythm
- 512 words
In which a boss fight is probably not the best time to worry yourself sick over your backseat driver's uncharacteristic radio silence.
some extremely formative bodysharing prose for this specific rar. great frisk&chara, mad dummy is there, knives,


the place I stop and you begin
- 1,725 words

"It has already been used several times."
- Info text for the Bandage

Chara & Frisk, MORE formative bodysharing prose for this specific rar. bonding over being self-harming kids...

bon courage
- 4,150 words
From the outside, the rain shelter looks so small—nowhere near as big and lonely as it felt the first day you sat there. You take a deep breath and try to avoid the sinking feeling of weight settling over your whole body. It’s only been a few days. You have food and everything. It’s going to be fine.
(But nobody came.)
this is a HUGEEEEE crowd favorite, it's "what if Frisk said they had somewhere else to be at the end, but they didn't, actually", and it's pretty damn good

but.... my actual favorite of the two.... is:

their words become metallic spangles shivering the air. - 12,436 words

I’m not one of you squeaks the shattered sapling, blackened by lightning. (...)
Will I forget the way home? the third blurts.
- Amy Gerstler, "Bon Courage"

The B-side to an old crowd favorite.
the alternative version, in which Frisk agrees to stay with Toriel, but actually did have parents who would miss them. this is just such a doubling down. great discussion of why Frisk misses their parents even though their parents suck. great exploration of being intersex, and nonbinary, and inter-cultural, and how being Japanese/Korean in a white town can suck, and how being in diaspora can suck, and. It's just good.


joy of your desiring - 3,323 words

It's winter holiday season, which to two thirds of the Dreemurr household usually signifies suffering. Thankfully, this year Frisk has a brilliant plan.

a fun little fic about very jewish chara and frisk being exasperated by christmas... and in general fun frisk/chara/asriel being silly 20 somethings... all i want is to see them alive and thriving....





SERIES

you can only use your own - 305k words

You cannot use someone else’s fire; you can only use your own. And in order to do that, you must first be willing to believe you have it.
- Audre Lorde

Or: Snapshots from a world where Chara and Asriel lived.
Asriel convinces Chara to live, and then we cover their lives for the next 30 or so years as we introduce the other fallen humans... great stuff. listing it first partly because feral reuses these fallen human designs for all their other fics, mostly in references, but not necessarily required reading for them. just to know!

my favorite in this series is probably somebody out there needs you.... prase i like them... also chara pov is always so tastey

though a wish you tell a star and no one else is also so great... i love asriel and alphys friendship so much.... 


we were faster on our feet - 42k words
A scrapbook of Frisk, Chara, and Asriel's postcanon teen years, told in holidays.
series of postcanon fics told through the three kids celebrating Jewish holidays

of them, a hundred roots silently drinking is easily my favorite, but the one about sukkot is really cute, too, (warnings in that one for bad therapists mentioned offhand)


a heart is no king's throne
- 34k words
Sharing a body and a soul also means sharing a mind; sharing a mind means no privacy, no boundaries, nowhere to escape even if you need time to yourself, means memories and emotions spilling over and no way to control it.

This by itself is a situation that's very much beyond a couple of fucked-up ten-year-olds' capacity to navigate in any sort of healthy manner, let alone while they're both trying to serve in the role of plucky rpg hero, so it's very lucky for them that they've got a kind player to help steer them.
the game (true pacifist) retold through a handful of oneshots exploring bodysharing, trauma, feral's headcanons for the kids' mental health etc; ""canon"" events for what leads up to we were faster on our feet, eventually explains the "how we managed to each get our own bodies again all normal anyway" bit but also just... idk. it's good. i love feral's iterations of the kids haha.

i like the fics for snowdin and for waterfall quite a lot.... there are bits in both i rotate and rotate and rotate in my head a bunch


ADULT/NSFW


-tba
-add color bleeds idek that that isn't an undertale fic, like, it's just a good discussion of being trans re: sex from one boy who has medically transitioned and one who has not. technically has massive spoilers for yggdra union but not in a way that's easy to parse without the context, i think,

ywkon daemon au, focusing on jade in AAP, because aera voice "flesh eaters keep their driver's daemon" has been haunting me for probably a year now, and some prose came to me in the shower, so i just doubled down

note: the flesh eaters keeping their daemon thing works best in a xc2 au i think (for jin, for nia), and i don't know how it's going to function for other ywkon flesh eaters ((partly because kratos would be, like, this Whole can of worms, if he still had a lloyd's daemon and then met lloyd again several hundred years later, and that scares me))

but that's not the point here. let's get on with the prose.

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okay so the short of this is i had a dream that was 1) "what if lloyd wasn't the only blade hybrid kid" 2) felt completely lore compliant to me 3) starred the child of Jade, who he was startled to find out he even had

thinking about it awake, i was still really compelled by the whole thing, and decided: -> fuck it, why not, he could've had sex with Galea -> so she's a jadegalea fankid -> her name is Lia (short for Carnelia, yes, the red stone,) -> though the dream didn't have Jade finding out until Lia was an adult, there is NO WAY that galea woudl have just ... not told him ... so,

anyway this is why the fic about jade and galea having sex exists,

and I have written a fic about Lia being born, focusing mostly on what Galea's doing immediately post AAP... BUT! chapter 1 is all i have writen so far, and a significant portion of chapter 1 features Galea being pregnant. which I know squicks some of my friends.

so first: the immediately relevant prose, where Lia is born and Galea realizes that she has had Jade's child, and not Klaus', like she assumed

second: more detailed content warnings for the whole of chapter 1 of a stonesthrow, a happenschance, mainly listing where the pregnancy starts

third: recounting the relevant portions of chapter 1 if you do not want / cannot read the chapter at all

fourth: setting details / new character introductions. other than the fact that Lia exists, this is the most important information that chapter 1 brings up, and then some more bonus details about the characters/visual references. i may later move these to ao3 itself, but idk yet.
 

the fic )

detailed content warnings )

recounting of chapter 1 )

setting/character lore )

need to send these to someone, didnt want to use gdocs, etc

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Oct. 14th, 2024 09:32 pm
rarsneezes: (dragorg)

a fanmix for xion kingdom hearts. or, a playlist about identity, and maybe also being trans....?


https://open.spotify.com/playlist/36nOphvtrioeEtROFgnrCN?si=e0071dca58f34f72


https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLcZWM8-DdIfxGlQta_Hebqgf8qYorLG3y 



salt - bad suns

Look in the mirror and tell me

What it is like to be free

How do I grasp reality

When I don't have an identity


puppet loosely strung - the correspondents

Let me put myself in your shoes as a puppet loosely strung

Around you they were so confused a faulty man could have so much fun

They read your smiles, nothing but teeth, looked at you with pity first, then disbelief


copy of a - nine inch nails

I am little pieces, little pieces, little pieces

Pieces that were picked up on the way

Imprinted with a purpose, with a purpose, with a purpose

A purpose that's become quite clear today


xcopy.exe - master boot record

(instrumental)


echo - crusher-p

What the hell's going on?

Can someone tell me please

Why I'm switching faster than the channels on TV?


give me to the waves - general ghost

Cycle through my memories

I'm the one who's hiding under the sheets

Wishing I was what I wanna be

Somebody else who lives a little bigger than me

In my dreams

I'm not sleeping


human - ellie goulding

I am so scared of what I'll look like in the end

For I am not prepared

I hope I will get the chance

To be someone


life on land - dessa

I'm just a girl

In the body of a boy

In the belly of a whale

You can't be sure

This far from shore

Which winds prevail

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COME CLOSER. I'M NORMAL. ABOUT THE AUTISTIC DUNGEON MAN. I'M SO NORMAL.

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THEY GO OFF THE RAILS!!! THEY'RE SO AU IT DOESN'T MATTER IF YOU'RE CANONBLIND!!! THEY'RE INEXPLICABLY MORE THAN 100K!!!!

HERE'S RAR'S RECLIST, BECAUSE THIS IS MY FAVORITE GENRE OF FIC!!!!!!!

notice: written for my friend Rose from dwrp so a lot of the descriptions were written with them in mind rather than a General Audience TM

notice 2: not in any specific order other than the order i had bookmarked them in (reverse chronological) and/or the order i remembered them in. do not take this as a list of preference in any way thank you (needed to write this so i didn't overthink about rearranging their order lmao)
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i was gonna make an image but it became really impractical and added nothing that text couldn’t (other than like being able to see their faces i guess)

They Are All Good Friends so it seems silly to reiterate each time

riku and namine
- dated briefly but it didn’t work out; very close and care deeply for each other but don’t trust each other w/ everything anymore (this is healthier for them; they were never really trusting each other with everything to begin with and riku was weirdly overprotective about it anyway and he’s working on not being that anymore but)

riku and kairi
- riku is more open with kairi becuase he’s not afraid of burdening her and kairi actively encourages him not to keep secrets so he caves; kairi cherishes this trust

namine and kairi
- like sisters; have a routine of dancing to kairi’s mixtapes together when in a bad mood. like with riku kairi wants to help introduce namine into all the shit she doesn’t know (due to being a replica) and namine loves kairi’s energy even if it’s exhausting to keep up with sometimes
(“like sisters” but i do not want to insist that the bond between them couldn’t be gay; all five tehm are a bit poly qpp so it. well.)

namine and sora
- are quiet together a lot; the friends who talk about OCs together; sora writes stories and namine draws art. they probably have whole universes they’ve created that it feels hard catching everyone else up on

sora and kairi
- best friends since childhood have known each other since they were babies, ride or die. will throw down for the other and with the other without thought. epitome best friends. very stupid always enable each other.

sora and riku
- are extremely in the fic itself “too aware that the other is handling their own issues to deal with mine also” but are good friends and vibe easy.

sora and kano
- currently dating; have a complicated past but sora wants to give kano a second chance becuase he thinks he deserves one and also wants kano to know that he is always allowed to choose his own happiness. kano is like I Don’t Deserve You, But Okay, and very very very grateful that sora doesn’t hate him

kairi and kano
- met at a time when the other was the only person they could be wholly honest with; that bond never really faded. they both understand things about each other that no one else ever will. moirails. emotional support bastards. etc.

kano and riku
- have an ongoing mario party rivalry. their relationship is really under developed in the fic but i think that even if they aren’t close (and i think they will be, they just need time) they also are the kind of friends in which if you need someone to help you you call the other and they will be there at a drop of a hat.
ALSO HILARIOUSLY KANO MADE RIKU’S DARKNESS PROBLEMS WORSE BUT WHILE KANO IS AWARE HE FUCKED WITH RIKU’S DARKNESS HE HAD NO IDEA HE CAUSED [GESTURES], AND NEITHER DOES ANYONE ELSE. i just think about it a lot.

kano and namine
- also underdeveloped but i think they bake together. that’s my thought. also they sit and listen to kairi’s mixtapes together, much to kairi’s embarassment/fondness when she finds out


joseph
- the almost ienzo looking kid with the long black hair and blue jacket and pink shirt with random stuff on it: he’s an oc who is a replica who exists in this universe for reasons. mostly he’s everyone obnoxious little brother figure. riku is exasperated namine is fond kairi is like IF YOU DON’T WANT HIM, I’M KEEPING HIM. i don’t know how sora and kano feel about him in depth. probably no objections.

“replica of who” experiment in which vexen just started fucking around and combining data of multiple people, he definitely has zexion data in there and who knows what else. he’s thirteen. he’s exactly what you expect a thirteen year old with no confidence issues to be.

also he’s nonbiney and he/him is fine but kairi IS going to give him all her handmedown skirts. here’s art of him wearing one. thanks.
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2023 roundup

Jan. 2nd, 2024 12:53 am
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2023 roundup....

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stupid mario bros watch order thoughts..... this is a silly comedy youtube series that Accidentally A Plot (what else do you expect from theatre kids tbh) and because it's comedy i don't often seriously recommend it to anyone. BUT! here's my short version of why you might want to consider watching it and also about the watch order because the official playlist made some decisions i don't agree with

What Is Stupid Mario Brothers?

StMB is a youtube series created by Rich Alvarez and his friends; they have home-made costumes for characters in the Mario series as well as... several others if they ever appeared in Smash. The premise is that Mario's tired of saving Peach all the time so he goes to take a vacation in the Real World (Luigi comes with him) and just relax and have fun. But Bowser hires Wario (and Waluigi) to bring the Mario Brothers back to the Mushroom Kingdom, or else.

Shenanigans ensue, but as the series progresses things start getting... a little Serious. Wario has a full blown character arc that very closely matches Riku KingdomHearts' character arc. There's an evil wizard named Nox Decious that gets introduced. Nox Decious creates a dark clone of Mario who spends all of his screentime struggling with his identity; wanting to be a separate person from both his creator and from the idiot hero he shares a face with. And that's just the TIP of the iceberg.

Of course, this is also a comedy series, so while the genuine plot beats are very heartfelt and touching, you also gotta accept that it's flavored with teenage boy humor. Thankfully none of the humor is bigoted, but you know.

Anyway: It's just a bunch of friends who genuinely care about what they're making, so if that's a thing you like watching... (Huge Star Wars, Final Fantasy, and Kingdom Hearts influence. And if you liked Super Paper Mario, do I have great news for you!)

I think the most apt comparison is with Roosterteeth's Red vs Blue series. They have the same "this was meant to be a comedy show but we cared too much and now it has lore and plot that will fuck you up" ...but also its STILL a comedy show. haha.

So..... Watch order?

The official playlist is genuinely quite good with some caveats

  • general warning about Episode 1: the first half is "haha mushrooms are drugs" jokes but that lasts about two minutes before they go inside the house and then afaik the jokes are literally never like that again in the series. the first episode is just a bad showing of what you'll be in for.
  • Episode 13, meanwhile, I consider to be the quinessential essence of StMB condensed into an episode, so if you wanna hit one episode up to see if this might be your jam, hit up Episode 13 here
  • Alternatively go watch the movie to start with, like I did. I was fucking hooked after the movie and immediately went back to watch the series from the start haha.
  • The Complete Playlist doesn't make it super clear where one season ends and where another begins, but each season is 15 episodes, so 1-15 is Season 1, 16-30 is Season 2, etc. The thumbnails also have a differnet bg picture per season.
  • the Movie occurs after Season 3 - and the complete playlist has a 2 hr Final Cut of the movie. i do not recommend this. the Final Cut adds a 5 minute lore infodump that is not relevant to StMB as a series (it's important to the sequel series, World,) and also moves some scenes around, which makes the pacing muddier, imo. Also there's the charm of watching 2009 youtube content as intended: in 10 minute chunks split across several videos, you know?
  • Act 1 is almost purely dicking around, while Act 2 is where the actual plot lays, lol.
  • content warning: the movie Act 1 Part 4 features a harry potter crossover for a single gag. it's obviously making fun of harry potter, but unfortunately the joke is "harry is mentally ill, isn't that funny!?!?!" - it's signalled by a title screen saying "harry potter and the awkward movie crossover" at 4:16 and ends at 6:25 (where ash and brock start talking, if you're hovering over the progress bar to skip.) In the Final Cut of the movie its at 55:51-57:58.
  • "hey you said the humor wasn't bigoted" this one was so unexpectedly bigoted that it made me uncomfortable for years, and i presume if there were any others i would have also remembered them. i'll edit this post if i stumble on any others, though. and it might be a Product Of Its Time in some ways (such as if you're watching Red vs Blue)
  • Operation Blind Storm is mandatory if you want to watch past the movie, but any other video that isn't prefaced with Stupid Mario Brothers you can skip. No clue what the Ash&Brock stuff is. Season 4 SAYS the interactive adventure is relevant but I don't think it is.
  • content warning: Operation Blind Storm has flashing lights from 11:51-12:01 - Snake shoots the beacon - gunshot sound - screen goes fully white before it cuts to the flashing scene. When Snake says "What happened?" and Luigi responds, then it's safe to look. (This is shown again in a flashback in Episode 60 4:03-4:12. Ness puts the hat on his head, Darkness says "into his head", the scene cuts to flashing for ten seconds. It's safe to look when the Darkness says "Making me the most powerful" etc.)
  • Also: most episodes would have bloopers at the end of the episode, but starting at Season 4 they get put in separate videos which are... not in the playlist. If bloopers are vital to your experience, check out the Season 4 and Season 5 playlists. Unfortuantely these playlists have missing videos (damn copyright getting stricter) so. Win some lose some. Reuploads are in the complete playlist.
  • If you've seen a previous version of this post, you might recall me saying that Season 4 (46-60) had a sudden increase in diarrhea jokes. great news! I was misremembering the severity. It does have a lot of fart jokes but only two diarrhea jokes. Episode 46 from 8:00 to 10:06 (safe when u see Wii Sports), and Episode 57 from 4:30-4:53 (safe when u see Wario walking towards Mona).
  • Stopping Places: you can stop after the Movie (not a wholly bad idea! it was clearly written to be 3 seasons and a movie), or you can stop when StMB ends at Episode 75 (if you like KH plots and the Darkness - that's the name of the dark clone of Mario - then consider going thru to 75). When I recommend StMB I usually am just recommending episodes 1-75 and the movie. HOWEVER. here's thoughts about other stuff in the playlist for you.
  • Plumber Knight Returns (PKR) - this is like Mario but it's Batman but Batman is edgey and grimdark. Alternate timeline where Mario is older and stayed in the real world because Peach and Luigi and possibly also Bowser are dead. Definitely an M rating instead of a PG13 rating. Season 2 (starting at Episode 11) is marginally better because it has a more coherent plot, and if you're a serious fan of the Darkness you might want to watch, or you can watch episode 20 and ONLY episode 20 for some of Chris' best acting in the whole series. You don't have to watch PKR to understand anything else.
  • Stupid Mario World (World) - a reboot series ft a smaller/different cast of characters oustide of Mario and Luigi - the costume budget has gone up significantly. Season 2 (starting at Episode 16) has fun plot about the multiverse and there's three Marios (one of them is from PKR) and it's all good fun. I don't recommend it as strongly as the StMB main series, but World is alright. Squall from FF8 is there and has homoerotic tension with half the cast. They did Linkle better than Nintendo did (Linkle is an actual reincarnation of Link). Stuff like that. OH! AND IT HAS PAULINE, WHO DIED IN STMB BUT WAS RESURRECTED IN WORLD, AND SHE'S THE MARIO BROS' BITCHY NEIGHBOR. GIRLBOSS OF THE YEAR. I LOVE PAULINE SO MUCH IN WORLD.
  • Stupid Mario Bros: Legacy (Legacy) - series ending movie. Hugely redeemed the Darkness for me after both episode 75 and PKR sort of fumbled his portrayal. It was a movie made specifically for me. It's got bodysharing. It's got trust. The Darkness and Mario become friends. I genuinely don't remember what else happens in this movie because I was so taken by being fed Everything I Ever Wanted re the relationship between Darkness and Mario. Huge recommend if you're a Darkness fan.


friends of rar specific rec: if you watch Stupid Mario Bros then you will understand why FtPverse is like that. Darkness was a huge huge HUGE inspiration for Shad - even tho all the niche things they have in common occurred in StMB after I'd written them into FtPverse.

but nonetheless. It's good shit.

Also this portrayal of Ness is my favorite portrayal of Ness. It's a shame the Solid Snake portrayal comes from people who either didn't understand Metal Gear or never played Metal Gear. Oh Well!

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2025 addendum:

so. the mario movie triggered me (physical abuse/domestic violence overlap) (yes, real shit, details here) and so in hindsight i'm never going to be able to be fully objective about it and will forever hate it

but here are my "i just saw the movie in theaters it has been out a week i have been spoiled for absolutely none of it; i got home on the bus and immediately sat down to type all this up" thoughts on the matter about things i felt about it other than it triggering me, lol,


Initial thoughts (2023, literal hours after leaving the movie theatre)

okay. rar’s Mario Movie review. uhm. honestly this isn’t even a review as much as it is. I need the thoughts inside me to no longer be thoughts inside me but instead words on a page, so, here I am, and here you are, if you decided you wanted to read me being Extremely Autistic about this movie

I’m going to start this by saying: I didn’t really like it

And then follow that up by saying: I didn’t like it due to intensely personal reasons and emotions I feel about the characterization of the main cast, which are opinions and reasons that matter a lot to Me Personally

And: I see no real reason why anyone who isn’t me would hate it as much as I did

(unless, as a PSA, if you really dislike Illumination’s brand of humor, you should probably pass. Like, there’s no fart jokes and no thinly veiled sex jokes, but otherwise the tone and pacing of the humor is about the same as it is in other Illumination movies, so if you really really REALLY hate Illumination’s humor and were thinking of making an exception because Mario... don’t bother.)

 

Anyway.

Spoilers be upon thee from this point on.

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feb 2023

Mar. 28th, 2023 09:59 pm
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theme of february is

i dunno

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the theme of this month was being gay some more, i guess, and also devouring the protector of the small books by tamora pierce

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oh my god i wrote 1000 words before i got to uh. just doing my traditional listing shit phase. help

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the theme of this month was uh. oh wow. wow i was really embarrssingly gay huh! wow!

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november 2022

Dec. 4th, 2022 10:40 pm
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november!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i got really bad at remembering to write shit down but the theme of this month was mostly just being gay about aera and the time we got to spend together LMAOOOO

and also blaring jamie paige's bittwer sweet album (esp paisley patterns!!!) on repeat. you should check out her bandcamp she rules

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